hello, Johnnyd2/johnnyd1988 here. I have Aspergers Syndrome, and heres my story about Depression and the like
first off, i felt like writing this after watching Chris Sander's youtube video about depression and helping yourself.
as for what im feeling, well, my depression stems from a few major things
a. Motivational problems.
b. Feeling accepted for who i am or making a name for myself
c. worrying about small things too much
d. Worrying about my weight.
e. Weather screws my mood over too
as for what each of these mean, heres the deal
a. I have a HUGE BACKLOG of Games, Movies, Books, Cards, the works that i have untouched or unplayed, and it really makes me feel bad when i think about them. Game Bundles and Steam sales are like crack to me. I am also an impulse shopper, though ive been working at that. Also i play World of Warcraft a LOT which makes it harder to play through my non WOW stuff
b. Sometimes i feel like i follow trends too much, I feel like i havent really made a name or identified my area of specialty. I have a good job delivering papers at a hospital, but i still wonder if people accept me for who i really am.
c. You know the expression dont make a mountain out of a molehill? I tend to do that quite a bit, and apologize and say sorry WAY more than i should, and i have patience issues as well.
d. This is where the cylical part of my problem begins, when i get depressed or feel down, i eat a lot. Henceforth i feel bad about my weight
e. Dark nights or heavy weather like rain dampens my mood a lot, and that never helps me out.
I'm already taking steps to help with my depression a bit, like getting a kitty for my apartment. I sometimes wonder if thats enough, or if theres somethign more i can do, hope to hear back or get feedback
PS: I hope im doing this right, i also posted this in the getting over it and depression sub reddits as well